People....Moments....and Life !!

I have been lucky ......reasons for my conviction are many....

If we say that life is made up of people we meet.... and moments we spend in this world...than my life for sure has been nice.

There are people who think before they act...some think after the action.....and rest ( mad ones) don't think at all....i belong to the last category. I have done things which were actually mad.....sometimes bad also ...risky....dangerous....antisocial ....etc...etc....but thankfully nothing went wrong...ever.

I believe in inherent goodness of humans....and they behave that way with me at least 

I am blessed with friends whom i can trust with my life and who are with me even after all the idiotic things i do.
friends who actually teach  maths and economics.....
friends who can tolerate and even appreciate my stupid philosophy and poetry ...
friends who treat me as a kid  and also  friends whom i force to call me aunty :) ...
friends who find every guy i date as a idiot..not my type...or simply "u deserve better"..... :) 
friends who say " this guy is really a nice person...please leave him " :P 
friends who trust me with their secrets...
friends who think i cant keep a thing in my heart.....
friends who are now not part of life but life itself....

Even the strangers i bumped into are amazingly nice to me.... anu is epitome in this case ....after all the fights...after all the nonsense i did...he will always be there.....aaahhh what a feeling.... :) 

Strangers whom i can just call and say whatever i feel like....and  i guess they understand..... :) 
Strangers who are simply future friends.....

Strangers who made me feel supremely special in front of everyone.....with whom the world seemed way more beautiful...
I am fond of the days in which i lived more than ever.....the unplanned trips....the head banging without music.....discussing something or someone and than forgetting from where we started....
writing this today because in the morning i did something which made me feel funny....childish...etc.... etc...
thank u God for making me smile....thank u for everything.... :) :) 

kuch cheejo ki jagah koi nahi le sakta....unhi sab ke liye ye post...for the special ones :) !!

kisi chirag ki roshni is baat ka ehsaas karati hai ki
Aftaab chala gaya.....shaam ho chali hai..
wo nahi isiliye kuch us jaisa chahiye...
roshni to milti hai..itni hi jisse ki bas zaruraten poori ho....par Din hone ka ehsaas aftaab ke bina kon karaye ??

kankar ke jungle bana diye....maqbaron tak me khoobsurati dhundne ki koshish kar daali insaan ne...

par zindagi ka jo ehsaas ek phool ko dekh ke...ek ped ka sahara le ke...aur us hawa ke jhonke se milta tha jisme khushboo hoti thi...wo ham kahan se laayen ??
bachhon ke liye bahot se khel khoj liye hain hamne....
par jo bachpana nahi raha use kahan se laayen ??
jo  insaan ham khud the.... jo hame hona  chahiye tha..
dheere dheere sirf yaadon me aur sapno me hi rahne laga hai....
uske sath bitaane ke liye zindagi ham kahan se laayen ??
bahot koshish ki koi tujh jaisa mile....
par e meri zindagi tujh jaisi koi ham kahan se  laayen ??
tujhe jo din-b-din rulaya...jo din-b-din barbaad kiya...
wo har beeta hua lamha kahan se laayen ??
kuch aansu tujhe diye anjaane me....par jaanbujh ke jo zakhm diye unki maafi ham kahan se laayen ??
kabhi tujh se ishq na karke dhoka khaya...kabhi kisi aur ko tujhse jyada tawajjo di....
in sab gunahon ke hisaab ki sazaa ham kahan se laayen ??
kar de maaf tu hame ek aur martaba....ek tu hi hai jo uska tohfa hai hamare pass ....
insaan achha jab tak bana nahi jaata is jahaan me khuda ham kahan se laayen ??

Rishto me thand !!

aankhon me  udaasi hai....
chehre ka rang b kuch feeka sa hai..
hoth sukhe pade hai banjar zameen se...
tumhare haal se lagta hai rishton me kaafi thand hai....
wo garamahat nahi milti kahi se jo maa ki baaton me thi...
jo behan ke saath me thi....
jo bhai ke gale lagane se har dar door bhaag jaata tha...
jo pita ka pass hona har kami poori kar deta tha...
ghar se door bhi apne milte to kitna acha hota...
tujh me in sabka sa pyaar mujhe milta to kya baat thi....
sirf taareekh badalne se kaash waqt bhi badal jaata to  ...
is thand me main b jee leta....is thand me main b jee leta...

Memoirs !!

Tu meri zindagi ki kitaab ka wo muda hua panna hai jisse aage ki kitab maine nahi padhi.
Tu mera aaj ka din hai jise maine jeeya hai aur usse aage kya hoga mujhe pata nahi
Pata nahi kyu tum mere dil ke maidaan me raaste dhundh rahe ho, kya nahi jaante ki tum pahle ho yahan ?
Kisi ke nishaan nahi milenge tumhe
Khud ke raaste banao,apne pyaar ke nishaan chodo,
Tum to ek kiran se ho....ek rang se..
Main paani ki boond
Mujhe chuoge to apne aap ke andekhe anjaane pahlu aur rang jaan jaoge
Tum ho wo mukaam jisse meri zindagi do hisso me bat gayi hai...
Ek wo jab tak tum se nahi mili thi....
Ek tumse milne ke baad .....
Tum to mera tajurba ho.....Jo sirf mera hai...Achhe ya bure me main tumko nahi baant sakti....
Tum bas ho.... Tumhara hona hi kafi hai....
Tum to mere liye paani se ho ....jiski talab koi aur nahi mita sakta....
Tum to bas tum ho....aur bas tumhi ho....jahan kahin b ho umeed hai jaisa sochti hu waise hi ho !!

Happy New Year :)

naye saal se umeed kuch aisi hai meri.....
purani neendon me naye khwaab mile mujhe...
aur naye khwaabon me mile wo mujhe poora karne wali baat
puraane chehro me ek nayi taazgi mile mujhe....
aur naye chehro me wo purana, jaana pehchana pyaar..
naye mod pe mile wo hamsafar jo jindagi bhar saath de...
aur nayi silwaton par wahi jaana pehchana mehboob....
naye shauk milen mujhe .....
aur naye shauk me wahi purana ehsaas-e- behtari....
nayi muhobbat bhi mile mujhe  har taraf se .....
aur mile kuch naya aur kuch  purana junoon....
naye waqt ke saath chalu main ....
aur mere saath chale wo purane haseen lamhe....aur kuch naye ache lamho ki umeed ...
dhundhu main wo jo mujhe kabhi mila nahi....
aur naya waqt leke aaye mere liye aisa kuch jaisa maine kabhi socha b nahi...
nayi mushkilen b hongi naye safar me....
naye andhere honge aas pass...nayi bhawnaon ke bhanwar bhi....
aur milenge naye honsle bhi..
kuch puraane dard b honge..kuch purani dawa b ....
kuch inqelabi b hoga aur kuch roj marrah bhi...
kuch nayi galtiyan b ham karenge...
kuch purani dohraenge bhi....
kuch sahi faisle b ham lenge ....
inhi sab se mil ke ban jaegi jindagi sahi bhi...
kuch naye dost bhi banenge jo har khushi ka hissa honge...
aur banenge kuch naye dushman bhi jo hamare har jashn me khud ko jala ke roshni karenge..
bahut kuch hoga socha samjha...
lekin jyada tadaad hogi itefaaqon ki ....
ek jindagi abhi "tumhari" hai...ek jindagi abhi "meri" hai...
aaega is naye waqt me ek din aisa  jab ek jindagi hogi "hamari" bhi...
:) 
happy new year ....:) 

confessions of a happy mind :)

About today i can say for sure that it was a nice day....
.went to a place which i like ...
bought 2 books....Ruskin Bond and Garcia :)   .
..saw paintings..
..talked to a dear friend about books...feeling ..and places..
..and roamed around in Delhi....
Sometimes I thank God because I can be happy with less....i mean roaming around and chatting with friends makes me happy...:) :) 
went to gym...I just love myself when i go to gym..its like the best thing i can do to myself after studying of course.... :) 


now somethings i want to say ...straight from the GUT and HEART :D 

I don't know why my friends ( even others sometimes) think that i am impatient or i rush into things....childish...and other similar adjectives they use....I just want to say that its my pace ....i mean i do not have a life time to explore one emotion or one person....i just have few moments....i make my decisions fast...so what if i am wrong sometimes....so what i am hurt...its ok...when i do such things i know what the worst case scenario's can be....
I don't want my heart to be a graveyard or even a waiting room....i just cant let emotions sit there for ever.....i have to find a outlet....so i think its better to vomit them out than to let them rot there in my heart....my feelings deserve a expression...
I  am not committing a sin by expressing my love...or my anger.... feelings change...people change....time acts very swiftly....
I am not ashamed of throwing fits for the things i want...i did that when i was a kid....there is a kid in me even now....ok i am childish sometimes....but just tell me how ur elderly-ness has helped u ? just tell me how u r better than i m.....U also had fun and u were also hurt.....same stands true for me....
I am just happy the way I am...and it can never mean that i do not want to improvise....but there is a way...a better way...teach me....be with me to tell me that no you should not touch the fire....i will learn....invest some time ...invest some better part of your life in me....we will be good....we will be there for each other for ever....

emotional exaggeration !! heavy dose :P

Jaane kyu wo lafz nahi milte jo tujhe bayan kare
Jaane kyu wo yaad nahi milti jo hansa de
Jaane kyu wo insaan nahi milta jo mujhme tha
Jaane kyu wo waqt nahi milta jo sahi tha
Jaane kyu koi sawal nahi milta teri jubaan se
Jaane kyu kabhi koi jawab meri kalam nahi likhti
Jaane kyu tu fir se wahi apna hai jo
paraye ki jarurat mehsoos karaega
Jaane kyu tu wahi shaks hai jo mujhe fir se tod jaega
Jaane ye kaisi narajgi h khud se
Jaane kab tak ye khushi ka bhula
ehsaas mujhe rulaega
Jaane kab ye suraj khud ko bujhaega
Jaane kab insaan apne aap ko sirf insaan samjhega
Jaane kab wo khuda  kisi khuda ki tarah sab acha kar dega !!!!