Shauq aur shikayat !!

Aankh ki nami se shikayat nahi .... Wajah bas munasib rakhna ..... Tanha rahne  se  darne ki zaroorat nahi ....  Isko bas tum apna shauq rakhna .... Har lamhe aur har insaan me umeed mumkin nahi.....  Bas tum khud se naumeed mat hona ....  Poori duniya tumhe khali lage kisi k bina... Kisi k na hone ki ahmiyat inti nahi hone dena... Ye jo tera man h wo sapne leta h.... Bas kisi  bebasi ko apne wazood ka hissa mat rakhna ..... Insaan h to fir kaam b waise hi kar .... Har baat pe kya aansu bahana aur kya aahen bharna ..... Zindagi hai to zindadili b ho .... Kyu apni maut se pahle apna matam rakhna... Hona hai to sabse umda ho.... Nahi hona aisa to fir jaldi ek bure kisse ki  tarah khatam ho !! 

You and I !! :) :)

I do not  love you for something you have in you ...I love you because I need to....
"tujhe pyaar karna meri us zarurat ka hissa hai jo mujhe insaan hone ka ehsaas karati hai ....
teri zarurat meri us zidd ka hissa hai jo ye kahti hai akele rah ke khush nahi raha jaata....
Na jaane fir tu kyun us duniya ka hissa hai jo meri nahi hai...
Main din ki aag hoon to tu raat ki thand hai...
Main andhvishwas hoon to tu Tark hai...
Main jaagte dimaag ki sochi samjhi soch  hoon aur tu gahri neend ka sapna hai ....
Main khushi ki chamak hoon aur tu aankh ki nami sa hai...
Main bhavishya ki ek uplabhdi hoon to tu ateet ki galti ka ek nishaan hai ...
Main tazurbe ki pahchaan hoon to tu bachpane ki misaal hai....
Tu wo sab hai jo main rah chuki ....Main wo sab hoon jo tu hone wala hai ....
Haan main pehchanti hoon tujhe...teri rag rag se waqif hoon...
Maine tujhe jeeya hai apne har beete din me..
Haan tum mujhe nahi pahchaan paa rahe ...
Kyunki main tumhara wo bhavishya hoon jisse tumhari har galti mit chuki hai....
Haan main tumhare chahe anchahe balidaano ka parinaam hoon....
Nahin main tumpe sharminda nahi hoon....
Agar tum aise na hote to main b aisi nahi hoti....galtiyan nahi karti to seekhti kaise ?
Tum jaise b ho mere ho....aur main khush hoon tumhe paakar...
Aur umeed hai mere ateet ki apne bhavishya se mil ke tum bhi apni muskurahat rok nahi paoge !!

Happy Women's Day !!

A day dedicated to the source......from where life starts....human life from a womb......non-human from earth....
I bestow my regards and all the bestest of emotions i have to a race which makes us what we are...without whom we wouldn't be here.....
To the mother who brings us in the world.....
To the sister who makes the world a better place.....
To the friend who knows you in and out and accepts u with all your imperfections.....
To the lady who loves someone forever with soul and heart...and stays with her partner in happiness and pain...
We acknowledge the greatness of a female by giving all the important things in this world a feminine feel....may it be "life" or something as beautiful as "death" which takes u to another dimension....
She is the "light"....She is the "river"....She is "power"....and the list is endless.... beautiful....
I thank almighty  for many things but first and foremost i thank for being born as a  woman !!
"wo koi shay nahi jo tujhse khubsurat ho....
 wo koi ehsaas nahi jo tujhse pyara ho....
 wo koi pal nahi jo tujhse jaroori ho....
 sirf tu hai jiske bina har koi adhura ho...."

Insaan hona chahiye !!

Kis bhram me ho tum ?
Kyu baante jaate ho insaano ko ??
Tum kahte ho main Hindu hoon...main Musalmaan hoon...
agar sach me koi farak hai to 
tere lahoo ko haraa aur  mere lahoo ko kesariya hona chahiye....
aur aisa nahi hai to fir tumhe
Sirf Insaan hona chahiye...
Kyu khaal ke lifaafon ko itni ahmiyat dete ho ??
kyu apne aapko birtaani ...arab aur hindustani sirf banate ho ?
Agar koi farak hai sach me to tumhari shuruaat aur ant ko bhi alag hona chahiye....
tum bhi agar isi hawa me saans lete ho...
tum bhi agar isi paani se apni pyaas bujhate ho  to fir tumhe
Sirf insaan hona chahiye..
Agar apne maa aur baap ke mard ya aurat hone se jyada unka pyaar dikhai deta hai to fir
Duniya se is shakti shangharsh ko khatam hona chahiye..
Paise ka roop badalta hai...wo kabhi ek sa nahi rahta....wo hamesha jaruri bhi nahi rahta
lekin kuch achal aur amar chahte ho tum apne liye to 
tumhe bhi apne hunar ka Sikandar,Ghalib ya Newton hona chahiye,
Agar jhund me raho to bhediye sa samarpan rakho apni jaat k liye...
agar akele raho to sher sa zimmedar hona chahiye..
Sabki apni alag paribhasha hai ki achha kya hai....rahne do khush sabko apne tarike se...
lekin sabka ehsaas dukh k samay ek sa hai 
rona ya hasna kisi bhasha me nahi hota....
aur agar aisa hai to duniya se anyaay mitna chahiye..
Koshish kar ek aankh se aansu pochne ki 
Khilkhilata ek bachpan de kisi anaath ko...
Agar sirf itna har ek insaan kar de to kon kahta hai ki 
duniya ko jannat banane ke liye Khuda ko hona chahiye !!

Valentines Day !! :)

The day which  belongs to the red saint....love is actually in the air  this week....fake or real that's altogether a different question...people do look as if they are immersed in love....Even i claimed to be in love with someone yesterday...nonavailability of that person made me think about something else.....all thanks to his absence i could plan something.
I went to meet someone very special ...someone very close to my heart and soul...someone who years ago knew how exactly i will feel and wrote almost every body's  haal-e-dil with his kalam.
Mirza Ghalib.....I know  people  would ask how could i meet someone who is up there in heaven.....well we meet God everyday...we don't really have him in person though...so the same way i met my date....I went to Ghalib's haveli in Ballimaran(chandi chowk). 
The moment i entered i sensed  a change in me...i was feeling poetic...i was feeling that i should utter every word with lots of love...i was feeling  that i should behave like a lady ...i mean the proper nazaqat and tahzeeb part.
I sat there for an hour...i could feel his words...i wanted to remember something i have not seen. I tried to feel Ghalib moving around in his house....i wanted to listen to the gudgud of his sheesha......than i  read his maqtaas which were on the paintings ......it was amazing to feel that i could understand what he wrote....it was amazing to feel the love what he felt for someone....It was heavenly and it was divine....
It was  the best i could do for myself .....i thanked God for Ghalib....and i left....with love and respect in my heart....something i wrote for Ghalib...modifying his words off-course...
" Na kuch tha to khuda tha.....
   na kuch hota to khuda hota..
  tujhko banaya tere hone ne....
  GHALIB tu na hota to kya hota" !!!!

Definitely not a happy ending !!

Once there was a Shaheen ....It was as free as the wind....as independent as the ocean and as proud as the Sun.
It was her destiny  to fly alone....but once she saw some sparrows ....she was tempted towards the secure domesticated life. She searched for a human friend.She found one....she was sure that he will be the best for her adventures  .She trusted him.....loved him...was loyal to him....never even thought of anything else.....did whatever she could do to make him happy....even if it was beyond her limits...and even if it was on the verge of losing herself. She was happy because she was experiencing something new..she was ready to unlearn all the old things because she found the new ones worth learning.
Alas.....the human was not what she thought him to be....he caged her.....he never  was what he was supposed to be....he starved her to death.....She died.... and  with her died the love and the trust....with her died the conviction that if u love someone enough u will be loved back....with her died the dreams which were only hers...with her died the hopes she had of a different life....with her died the courage to chose her own destiny....with her died the human who lived in her heart....with her died a life worth living.
Out of her ashes came a message ......don't love...its a luxury of the extravagant ....its a paradise for fools....its  a graveyard of hearts....its a ocean of tears.... whatever it may be ..it is definitely not for you !! 

Trying to put feelings into words....tough exercise !!

Nazro se hi sahi....tune chhua to hai ....
boond boond hi sahi ....aasmaan barsa to hai !!
Wo jo tera diya ehsaas hai ... yaadon me  hi sahi ...par zinda to hai  !!
Zindagi na sahi tu meri...par iska ek khushi se bhara  hissa to hai !
koi saaz nahi aas pass...par kisi sukoon dene wali dhun ko har pal maine  suna to hai ..
tujhe jab se hothon pe rakha hai ...ek naya sa...meetha sa nasha to hai !!
Nahi pata ishq hai ya pal do pal ka suroor ...
par kuch behtareen hua to hai !!
Chehre pe bewajah ek hansi hai ....Zindagi kuch aur bhi zinda hai ..
har rang aur rangeen hai...duniya ki har shay khubsoorat lagne lagi hai..
Tera asar har cheez par gahra to hai !!
Mahroom nahi thi kabhi main kisi khushi se..
par tu pahle nahi mila zindagi me...is baat ka gila to hai...
Nakaam nahi hoti main apni koshishon me....
par is baar jo paaya hai wo sabse umda to hai..
Khush hoon apni kaabiliyat par ki 
insaano ki is  duniya me ek apne khuda ko dhundha to hai !!