virtual activism and somewhat misplaced anger

thoughts :)

Dard se dard nahi hota
Dard kisne diya ye soch ke aansu behte hain
Dushman mere me himmat nahi mujhe khatam karde
Ye  Dosto ka behrupiya hona hai jo jaanleva hai
Kis zamaane me hoon pata nahi
Kisi k ghar ka jalna kisi ke liye aatishbaazi hai
Na jaane kitni jhuth zehan me hai logon ke
agar koi sach bole to yaqeen koi karta nahi
Jaane kaisi andhi duniya hai
Sirf wahi dekhti h jo dekhna chahti hai
Sachai buri hai to nazarandaaz hoti hai
khoobsurat jhuth ho to use khareedne k liye...
 khud ko bechne ko tyaar rahte hain
Jaane kaise log sochte hain
Khuda jaane sochte bhi hain ke nahi ......

Sawal Jawab

kya tum mere bhagwan ho ?

wahi jise main mahsoos karti hu..zindagi ke sath....

kya tumhe bhi khushi aur gham mehsoos hota hai ?

kya tum bhi thand aur garmi me farak bata sakte ho ?

kya kabhi kabhi tumhara bhi man karta hai ki kisi se pucho ki aage kya hone wala hai ?

ya fir tumhe sab pata hai ..kyunki tum bhagwan ho ?

kya tumne ye sab banaya hai jo main aas pass dekh paati hoon ?

kya tumhe bhi apni banayi cheeje kabhi napasand hoti hain ?

kya tum apni galti maan kar use sudhar lete ho ? 

ya fir tum galti hi nahi karte kabhi ...kyunki tum bhagwan ho ?

kya main  is duniya ka ek aisa hissa hoon jiske hone ya na hone se farak nahi padta....

ya fir main jaruri hoon ...sirf isiliye ki main khud hi ek duniya hoon ?

kya mera duniya aur apne ko samajhne ka tarika galat hai ?

kya ye sab jinko main dekhti hu mere apne hain kyunki ham sabko tumne banaya hai ?

ya fir ham sab ka apna alag bhagwan hai ?

kya aisa hai ki tum har kisi se alag jubaan me baat karte ho ?

kya main moslem hoti to tum alag hote ?

ya fir tum sirf dharam se bandhe nahi aur sabke bhagwan ho ?

kya karu jab koi mujhe dukhi kare ?

gussa karu ki galat hua ya fir bhool jau jo bhi hua ?

ya fir sab tumhare bharose chhod du kyunki tum bhagwan ho ?

kya usi dil ki har baat sunti rahu jo zinda rakhe hai ?

ya acha rahega agar ye maan lu ki tumhi ho jo ander se mehsoos hote ho ?

ya fir har jagah tumhi ho ?

agar haan to fir to ham dono ek jaise hain bilkul...

tum mere bhagwan ho....main tumhari insaan hoon !! :) :) 

Khoobsurat Khayal....

Ek zindagi hoti hai jo khyalon me hoti hai...
kya haseen hoti hai...kya khoob hoti hai.....
aur ek zindagi hoti hai jo haqiqat hoti hai....
agar kismat achhi hai to jeene layak hoti hai....
na to bas kya kahoon ki kya hi hoti hai...
aksar sochti hoon ki agar khayalon wali us zindagi ko jeena pad jae to wo bhi badtar ho jaegi...
is duniya me  kisi khyal ka aana use kharab kar hi deta hai.....
yahan bhagwan ke avtar bhi aate hain to unhe marna padta hai...
ab khud ko hi soch lo ...kya the tum aane se pahle is duniya me...
ek khoobsurat khayal...ek umeed maa baap ki khushi ki...
aur agar sab ki maane to koi hai is duniya me jo tumhare liye bana hai..aur shayad tumhare intezar me bhi ho
shayad uske bhi kuch khayal honge tumhare liye.....
khud jaante ho ki tum wo khayal nahi ho....
kisi aur ka to chodo tum khud ka khayal bhi nahi ho....
mauka mile to tum bhi khud ko badalna chahoge...kisi khubsurat khayal ke sath...
aisa nahi ki mauke milte nahi....aisa nahi ki tum thoda bahot khud ko badalte nahi....
par wahi fir se hota hai....dimag ka nikla khayal jab sach ka roop leta hai to badsurat ho hi jata hai....
aur tum fir se apne aap ko badalne ki jarurat mahsoos karte ho....
itna sab sochne ke baad dimag me ye aata hai ki 
banane wale ka khayal kya tha hame banate samay....kya jo sab ho raha hai wo hame us sachai me tabdeel kar paega jo wo hamse chahta hai ?
kya ham kabhi ye maan payenge ki ham wahin hai jo hame hona chahiye ?
kya jo bhi hai ...jaisa bhi hai wo insaan sahi hai ??
kya ham sab kamiyon ko bhool ke  ya fir ye maan ke ki unhe badla nahi ja sakta ...ek dusre ke sath tahjeeb se nahi rah sakte ?
kya thodi kam khoobsurat sachai ek behad khoobsurat khayal se achi nahi ??
kya jo nahi hai uske liye rona itna jaruri hai ki jo h use dekh ke muskuraya na jae ??
koi sawal nahi poocha jo jawab mile....
koi jawab hai hi nahi jo mile....

zindagi !!

ek waqt aisa bhi tha jab ishq tha ...aur tu saath bhi tha...
ab to jo hai bas naam ki zindagi hai..
kuch lamhe aise bhi the jab ehsaas tha...zinda hone ka...
ab to bas sab batate hai ki main thik hoon...
ek waqt tha jab haqeeqat sapno se badh ke thi...
ab to jo b hai bas ek bura sapna hai...
ek waqt tha jab khuda se kuch maangne ki jarurat nahi thi...
ab to poora jahan maangu to bhi kam padta hai
wo jo ek shakhs tha tu jo mera apna....
wo jo ek umeed thi jo meri apni thi....
ab to jo hai bas ajnabee hain...
tha kuch aisa tere pass hone se.... dil ke darwaje pe dastak sirf khushi deti thi...
ab to jo bhi hai sirf dard sa sannatta hai ....
na jane kyu taseer badli hai waqt ki..
na jaane kyu tu bhi uske sath badal gaya hai....
ab to jo nahi badla wo sirf meri muhobbat hai 
ek waqt tha jab is muhobbat pe naaz tha....
ab to jo bhi hai wo sirf ek sawal hai ki maine aisa kyu kiya apne sath...
chahe jo b hua...jo bhi aage ho...
ab to jo bhi hai ye waqt hai jisse mujhe umeed hai !!!!

Dikkat hai !!

Paidaish se pahle hi maa baap ko mere ladki hone se dikkat hai...
 Main 18 saal se kam hoon to mujhe apni choti umar aur allahdpan se dikkat hai ...
aur agar main 25 se jyada hoon to mujhe har wo cheej chahiye jo mujhe jawan dikha sake..
Agar mere physical dimension  aur proportion curvy nahi hain to main badkismat hoon...
mujhe push-up lingerie aur botox ki jarurat hai...
agar main thodi bhi bharma gayi hoon to maine jeene ka haq hi kho diya hai....
ab mujhe khana peena chod ke marne ke intejar ki jarurat hai
Bhagwan ne zulm kiya hai mujhe sanwla rang deke...
ab to mujhe apne chehre se aur har nazar jo mujhpe padti hai us se dikkat hai...
lekin agar kuch jyada gora bana diya to wo b koi baddua se kam nahi....
mujhe golden hone ke liye tanning ki jarurat hai..
Ab khoobsurat hona hi sab kuch nahi hota....
mujhe apne jaan pehchaan walo  ke mujhse ameer hone se dikkat hai
Oh aaj to main saj dhaj ke bahar nikli thi...
agar kisi badshakal gareeb ne ghoora mujhe to wo badtameej hai..
lekin agar stylish metrosexual dude  mujhe dekhe to wo tareef mujhe pasand hai ..
Mujhe inspire  nahi karti Kiran Bedi ki mehnat aur uska iconic hona...
par roadies  aur splits villa ka hissa na ban pana mere liye suicidal hai
Main kaun hoon ?? Main hoon bhi ki nahi hoon ?
Haan main aajkal hi har ladki me dikh jaati hu...
Haan main duniya ki soch hoon..
aur mujhe is soch se dikkat hai !!

Tijarat ya Ishq ?

Kal main khush thi..aaj nahi hoon..

fark sirf muhobbat ka hai...

kal tak sab kuch khubsurat tha duniya me....aaj kuch b nahi hai,

fark sirf tere na hone ka hai

waqt tha jab har shay ko faayde nuksaan me dekhti thi main b ....

aur aaj sab kuch kho ke b khush hone ka haq mile to kam lagta hai..

kisi mehtaab k liye apne  shams ko girwi rakh diya ..

zindagi ki kuch pal ki kadwahat kam karne k liye...

tujhse jhuthi khushi ka mitha zeher le liya 

apne aapse naraj is qadar thi ki khud se qabil tujhko maan liya 

koi mujhe be-waqoof tajir kahe to koi achha aashiq...

fark sirf lafzo ke fer ka hai....

main badal gayi hu teri pehchaan se pare....par tu waisa hi hai....

fark  mere insaan aur tera sirf ek yaad hone ka hai

aaj bhi apne aapko galat maan lene ki himmat nahi..

aaj bhi tujhe ek kamtar insaan maan lena zurm lagta hai

mamla ek padri ke kaafir hone ka hai 

ab tu hi bata ki main khud ko kya kahu....

ek tajir jise sauda karna bhi na aaya ...

ya fir ek aashiq jo muhobbat ne siwa kuch ni jaanta !!